Desire Lines  
Emma Anderson

It’s raining in this room
And it’s so hot outside this room
I don’t know no-one here
I don’t want to be here in this room

We hold parties in our sleep
We fill ourselves up in our sleep
And I’ll heal you when you’re ill
Though it’s hard keeping still in our sleep

Prise the hair out of her mouth
Whilst the circus is heading south
While we search in the sand
Don’t ask them to understand
Why they cover up
Their hands and their mouths

Lignes-Desir
Emma Anderson

Il pleuvait
Dans cette chambre
Et il fait si chaud
Dehors cette chambre

Je ne connais pas personne ici
Je ne veux pas y être
Dans cette chambre

On fait la fête
Dans notre sommeil
On s’enivre
Dans notre sommeil

Je prendrai soin de toi malade
C’est difficile d’être immobile
Dans notre sommeil

Enlève ses cheveux
De sa bouche
Pendant le cirque
S’en va au Sud

Quand on cherche dans le sable
Ne demande pas de comprendre
Pourquoi ils couvrent leurs mains
Et leurs bouches

French lyrics © 2016 Miki Berenyi

Etheriel
Emma Anderson / Miki Berenyi

I know it hurts to see
That in the end
They sympathised with me
I know it hurts to say
It couldn’t happen
Any other way

I remember
When you were free
No-one else
Then you came to me
Cursed you then
That it couldn’t last
All the laughs we had
In the past

And if it hurts you too
I hope you know
That I’m still fond of you
And if it’s still unfair
Remember that
I thought you never cared

Sing to me
Comfort me
Turned away
Someone else
Takes my place

And so you made your choice
When I needed most
To hear your voice
But you were never there
And that was when
I thought you never cared

Ex
Miki Berenyi

Once upon a time I knew
How to make you happy
Or make you blue
Guess I’ll be the same again
But it’s not that easy
To just be friends

Look at where we are today
With our pointless efforts
To lay the blame
Maybe things can never work
After so much betrayal
And so much hurt

We’re in the same position
But a million miles apart
Maybe things will work eventually
But I just don’t know where to start

When love has gone away
Something takes its place
Does it really have to be hate
So what’s it going to be
It’s up to you and me
I just hope it isn’t too late

So love has been and gone
How do we go on
Is there something still worth saving
Well, what’s it going to be
We can wait and see
Tell me do you think we’ll make it

Let’s stop the silly games
Dishing out the blame
I know that you feel the same way
This doesn’t have to be such a tragedy
Everything will work out some day

Well, maybe in the end
We can just be friends
I want to but it isn’t easy
Yes maybe in the end
We will be good friends
This is how it really should be

Fantasy
Emma Anderson

When I’m home
I listen hoping for a clue
And you know they can’t
Tell us what to do
When you’re gone
Out of sight not out of mind
But you know this feeling
Took me years to find

And your eyes
They always know where it hurts
And your lips
Kiss me ‘til I’m fit to burst
Each day you watch me
With your static gaze
And smile
Naked at my silly ways

Planets spin around your head
Milk and sugar in my bed
Even when you’re far away
I can hear you every day

Wise hands grasping the delicate prize
I just wait for the time of our lives

My desires can’t be bought in black and white
Only you make me feel secure inside
For I know you really love no-one but me
And I smile because they think it’s fantasy

No-one knows what’s going on
They don’t know where we belong
Let you swim around my face
Live inside my special place

It’s only you that holds the key
Don’t know what you do to me
In our little secret world
I can be your little girl

For Love
Miki Berenyi

Pretty little girl she shines
Knowing she is young she smiles
Happy just to be a prize
Happy just to see his smile

Silly little girl she tries
Thinking she is good and wise
Doesn’t recognise the lies
Falling from her lips she sighs
This is so real
It’s what I feel
I look in your eyes and lose myself

Silly little girl denies
Ever understanding why
Her face is full of sad surprise
Every time she hears him cry
What do you feel when you’re with me
I look in your eyes and see myself

She looked in his eyes to lose herself
And when it falls apart she cries
Doesn’t think to look inside
She just covers up her eyes
Doesn’t see her own disguise

Girl’s World
Emma Anderson

You can be someone
But you can’t be me
And I know that somehow
I will never be free

Years ago in the darklands
I was dressed like a toy
Now this doll has her own hands
And she wishes you felt joy

When there might be another
It makes you shiver in the cold
That is why I don’t bother
Involving you in my world

Smashing glasses
And breaking vases
You lied to me over and over
You never listened to me

There was too much affection
You treated me as if I were clay
Home became like a prison
In my mind I kept running away

God’s Gift  
Emma Anderson / Miki Berenyi

What’s your passion
I think I see
You just can’t bear to let things be
What’s your weakness
I think I know
You just can’t bear to let things go
Finger in every pie
Can’t let a chance pass you by

Green with envy your greedy eyes
Have picked the flesh from all our lives
You want others to act the same
To flatter you with jealousy

Life is a race to be won
You’ve got to beat everyone
You’ve got to be number one

Popular and beautiful
Adored by men and women too
Perfect in every way
At least that’s what you say
You’ve lived and loved and suffered too
No-one’s got a patch on you
A saint, a star
A goddess and a brain

But the truth now
Are you happy in your lies
You know nothing’s perfect
Aren’t you lonely in your lies

Finger in every pie
Can’t let a chance pass you by
Make up your life with the lies

Popular and beautiful
Adored by men and women too
Perfect in every way
At least that’s what you say
But don’t you think that what we see
Belies the things you claim to be
A saint, a star
A goddess and a brain

Half And Half
Miki Berenyi

So much happened
And I couldn’t deny
That I broke your feelings
With the way that I lied
So I do understand
The reason you became so weak
Oh baby you’re not half the person
That you used to be

Brag your exploits down the telephone
While you scatter her images
Around our home
And it’s strange how
Where you feel pride
I felt only shame
I guess it’s not unusual
That I took all the blame
Did you feel as guilty
When you whispered out my name

They say it takes a while
To really mean goodbye
You say you feel confused
But I’m just feeling used
A year of misery
Has left its mark on me
I should have left you when
I wanted to back then

It’s never fair

I wish I could remove
The things I put you through
There’s nothing I could change
If we began again
But you don’t have to take any more

I guess I’m only half the person
That you thought I’d be
I’m thinking of the time
When you first said that you loved me
I’m feeling like I’m half the person
That I ought to be

Heavenly
Miki Berenyi

It’s a fantasy
Believe me
You touch my soul
With what you do

Heavenly Nobodies
Miki Berenyi

Just because they seem
To understand the way you feel
It just doesn’t mean that
They feel the same way too
Just because they seem to
Hold a mirror to your life
It just doesn’t follow
That they’ll be just like you
Take no heroes, it’s no good
They don’t stand up to you
Just take the bits you think that you can use

I remember when I was younger
I thought the answers were locked in people
So I admired the ones whose lives were
A source of envy to people like me

But do you really want to meet
The ones who write your dreams
Believe me it’s a fantasy
You won’t like the reality
If you want heroes keep them safe
They don’t stand up to life
So lock them in your soul
And lose the key

I love you, I don’t want to meet you

When I see you it makes me feel
There’s someone else out there like me
You touch my soul with what you do
It all makes sense when I hear you
You understand the way I feel
I know exactly what you mean
It’s like I’ve known you all my life
I think of you I feel all right

But in the flesh how would it be
If you could really see
The weaknesses you never knew
Alive and staring back at you
If you want heroes keep them safe
They don’t stand up to life
So lock them in your soul
And lose the key

Hey Hey Helen
Benny Andersson / Björn Ulvaeus

So at last you’re free
It’s the way you wanted it to be
It’s the price you pay
To be called a woman of today

Is it worth the pain
To see the children cry
Does it hurt when
They ask for Daddy

Hey Hey Helen
Now you live on your own
Hey Hey Helen
Can you make it alone

So you’re free at last
And beginning to forget the past
Does it make you sad
When you think
About the life you had

But you’re right
You had to take
A second chance
So you fight
To find your freedom

Hey Hey Helen
What’s the matter with you
Hey Hey Helen
Don’t you know what to do
Yes you do

© 1975 Universal/Union Songs Musikförlag AB
Bocu Music Ltd

Hypocrite
Miki Berenyi

A silly girl I run around
And never know my reasons
And though you’re laughing with me
I know what you say about me

I can’t explain
It’s not your business anyway
So don’t say you understand
And don’t pretend you’re on my side

And I remember when
You hated her for sleeping next to him
I see your smiling face
But I know you’ve done worse to me

You hypocrite
Don’t talk to me
‘Cause you’re not fit to know me
So don’t pretend that
You could have ever been a friend

And still I’m sure you think it’s okay
What you’ve done to me
‘Cause I’m so bad to him
Don’t even try to hide behind that stupid lie
I know your kind and
I know where your loyalties lie

The silly girls we run around
And never know our reasons
And though I understand
I guess I’ll say that you betrayed me

I’m a hypocrite
I dish it out but I can’t take it
I know you think it’s wrong
And maybe you’re right but this is my song

And still I’m sure you think it’s okay
What she did to me
‘Cause I’m so bad to him
Don’t even try to hide behind that stupid smile
I know our kind and
I know where our loyalties lie

I Have The Moon   
Stephin Merritt

We have walked
In ancient times
And we’ve been burned
For many crimes
We have ended many lives
But we never really died

You have the sun
I have the moon

You’d have to fly
Around the world all day
To keep the sun
Upon your face
I’d like to come and comfort you
But I’d be blinded by the blue

You have the sun
I have the moon

You’re bound to die
Under the sun
And I’ll be doomed to carry on
You have become
Like other men
But let me kiss you once again

You have the sun
I have the moon

© 1994 Gay And Loud (ASCAP)
Courtesy of Stephin Merritt/The Magnetic Fields

I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend
T Dunbar / J Gangwer

Sitting here
So close together
So far we’re just friends
But I’ve been wondering whether
Am I just imagining you
Do you really have a thing for me
Like I think I see
When I see you smile
And your smile’s for me
I gotta tell you

Hey you
I wanna be your girlfriend
Trying to say I want
To be your number one
Hey you
I wanna be your girlfriend
Gonna make you love me
‘Fore I’m done

Late at night
When I can’t sleep
Picture in my mind
I see you and me
I’ll tell you what I want to be
You to say that you’re in love with me
You know feels so good in a dream
That I know in life
We just got to be
I gotta tell you

Gonna make you love me
Yeah, I’m gonna make you love me
Number one

© 1979 Carlin Music Corp

I'd Like To Walk Around In Your Mind  
Vashti Bunyan

I’d like to walk around
In your mind someday
I’d like to walk all over
The things you say to me

I’d like to run and jump
On your solitude
I’d like to rearrange
Your attitude to me

You say you just want peace
And you’d never hurt anyone
You see the end before
The beginning has ever begun

I would disturb
Your easy tranquillity
I’d turn away
The sad impossibility
Of your smile

I’d sit there hearing the sound
Of the things I like about you
I’d sing my songs and find out
Just what they mean to you

But most of all
I’d like you to be unaware
And I’d just wander away
Trailing palm leaves behind me
So you don’t even know
That I’ve been there

© 1970 Branch Music / Vashti Bunyan

I've Been Here Before
Emma Anderson

I’ve tried to be strong
I’ve tried to be tough
But I think that this time
I’ve had more than enough
I’ve seen too much of your games
And your immature stuff
You’re a waste of time

All the people I’ve known
Throughout all the years
Too many vodkas
And too many beers
And I’ve learnt a few lessons
From all of the tears
You’re way out of line

I feel so lucky sometimes
I sit down and I look at all my friends
They mean more than
The stupid fools
That pass my way

I used to prefer those
Who weren’t good for me
Somehow the attraction beat reality
Now all the rubbish they spill
It means nothing to me
I’m just much more wise

Some people grow up
And some only pretend
They’re all over the place
These children dressed up as men
They can’t imagine how
A woman can be only a friend
And they deal in lies

I feel so lucky sometimes
I sit down and I listen to my friends
They say more than
The empty words
That pass my way

And I feel so lucky sometimes
I’ve got a feeling
I’ve been here before
I can see the world for
What it really is

You think that I’m jealous
Well, don’t be so vain
I can tell in your voice
You think I want you again
Well if I did
You know I think
I’d be a little insane
You just leave me cold

You and her in
Your sad little world
You can only exist
With the help of a girl
Well, I’m glad it’s not me
I’ve got my life to unfurl
You’re just way too old

Kiss Chase
Miki Berenyi

Tiny children on their own
They learn so fast
How to make new friends
How to play their new games

I remember a man
He had shiny hair
Always hanging around
When you went away
Little eight year old
She knows too many secrets
Much too young
To understand what it means

I remember a woman
With silver hair
And the smell and the taste
Of the bed we shared
So that’s how I behaved
Every time that you went away
And now though I’m older
Nothing’s changed               [playing the same games]

And I knew every day
Came a chance that you’d leave me
So I found what I could
To take your place
Told me not to cry
Said that I’d survive
As he waved goodbye

And I want to try
Not to make you cry
Want us to survive
Never say goodbye

But that’s how I behave
When you go away
Because though I’m older
Nothing’s changed               [playing the same games]

And I know every day
There’s a chance that you’ll leave me
So I find what I can
To take your place

Ladykillers
Miki Berenyi

Here we go
I’m hanging out in Camden
Drinking with my girlfriends
On a Saturday night
This guy says
Come and meet my girlfriend
She’s sitting in the corner
Looking rather uptight
So I say Hello and I try to be nice
But I see he’s feeling itchy
Trying to play us off each other
Girls, girls, please don’t fight
[You get the picture]

Hey you, the muscles and the long hair
Telling me that women are superior to men
Most guys just don’t appreciate this
You just try convincing me you’re better than them
So he talks for hours about his sensitive soul
And his favourite subject is sex
I don’t even think he really wanted it
But Christ, this guy’s too much
[I wanna tell him]

I’m as human as the next girl
I like a bit of flattery
But I don’t need your practised lines
Your school of charm mentality
So save your breath for someone else
And credit me with something more
When it comes to men like you
I know the score
I’ve heard it all before
[Here comes the next one]

Blondie was with me for a summer
He flirted like a maniac but I wouldn’t bite
I’m weak and he was so persistent
He only had to have me ‘cause I put up a fight

Oh God, the boy had such an ego
He liked to talk about himself
All day and all night
You think you’re such a ladykiller
But you were nothing special
‘Til you turned out the light

When he’s nice to me
He’s just nice to himself
And he’s watching his reflection
I’m a five foot mirror
For adoring himself
Here’s seven years bad luck
[I wanna tell him]

When you say you love me
You’re just flattering your vanity
But I don’t need your practised lines
Your school of charm mentality
So save your breath for someone else
And credit me with something more
When it comes to men like you
I know the score
I’ve heard it all before

Ooh, you’re such a ladykiller
Always on a winner
Thinking that you’re in there
Oh boy, you’re such a ladykiller
Super sexy mister
Call it what you will

Oh, you think you’re such a ladykiller
I just bet you’re still there
Posing in the mirror
Hey girls, he’s such a ladykiller
But we know where he’s coming from
And we know the score

Last Night
Emma Anderson 

And even in your darkest hour
The recipe I cook for you
Can release its latent power
And make your body feel brand new

Can’t you hear the music play
Being centre of what you want
Try to leave the past behind
Memories don’t appeal

All the things we said
All the things we did
All the things that passed
Were satisfied

So what happened last night

I went out into the blue
Sat watching the cars go by
I walked into a bar
I don’t remember anything
After the second glass

Well that’s all very well
They all say that
It’s very easy
You’re not going to
Get away with it this time
That’s for sure

Light From A Dead Star
Miki Berenyi

He lives his life
In a world full of women
And he takes what
He wants from their love
And he throws the rest away
I cling to him and pray
But still he slips away
And now it’s just too late
To wish him back again

She won’t put up with this life
So she leaves him
And she finds someone else
Falls in love and
She travels far away
I say that it’s okay
And swallow all my pain
And now it’s just too late
To wish her back again

They left me here
On my own
In a nightmare
And I just can’t forgive any more
So I smile and turn away
Don’t listen when they say
They wish that I could stay
‘Cause now it’s just too late
To wish me back again

Lit Up
Emma Anderson

You feel like I do
Like the whole world’s
Forgotten you
And your life
Is so dull
And predictable

Your room seems like a cell
And you don’t sleep very well
And your friends only talk
To point and to mock
And to ridicule

One day
Things won’t seem
The same way
I know

Morning in the mirror
Things will suddenly
Seem much clearer
I promise it’s all right

His words don’t flatter me
And they’re printed for all to see
I don’t care
He’s not there
It’s all history

The future’s yours to hold
And you’re really not very old
And your life is so white
So clean and so bright
And holds mystery

Lost Boy
Miki Berenyi lyrics
Emma Anderson music

There’s a face I recognise
Seeing you again
Is such a lovely surprise
Beckoning me with your smile

Wait just a moment
‘Til I know where I am
I feel your fingers slipping
Out of my hand
Now I’ve lost you
Where’d you go to

Faces crowd you from my sight
Seems like I’m always
Just a moment behind
Thought I saw you walk outside

There’s something nagging
In the back of my mind
Why did I think
I’d never see you alive
Oh, I’m dreaming
Don’t stop sleeping

Room to room
I run to find you
I should have never
Let you out of my sight
Desperate to be beside you

I didn’t know
I’d never see you again
Just want a moment
To be with you again
Oh, I’m waking
Now you’re fading

Love At First Sight
Stuart Moxham

I was waiting at the station
When your train came in
Wasn't you I was tiptoeing for
But you gave me a grin

Felt my heart in my throat
Felt my soul going out to you
Could this be love at first sight
I just didn't know
I didn’t know

Don't you feel insecure
All about your love for me
There's nothing I adore more
Than a fake heart bleeding

© 1981 Copyright Control

Lovelife
Emma Anderson

You are the one
In your concrete arms
I adore you
Dirty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

We blow around like
Tiny leaves in a big storm
Finding there’s nothing left
To breathe or to keep warm

You ebb and flow
And your rhythm beats my head
Leave me alone while you swallow up your dead

You are the one
You cradle me and kill
Caressing my face
Leave me undone
You suffocate and have me
This is the place

Every door conceals a dream and a nightmare
Nothing is ever really pure in the stale air

And when it’s dark
Everything becomes more clear
Lie in the park when I want to have you near

You are the one
In your concrete arms
I adore you
Dusty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

Left it unsung
I shall leave but I’ll return
Poison my lungs
My blood is full of lead
Things unsaid
My love for you still burns

Mannequin
Colin Newman / Graham Lewis

Well you’re a waste of space
No natural grace
You’re so bloody thin
You don’t even begin

To interest me
Not even curiosity
It’s not animosity
Just don’t interest me

You’re an energy void
A black hole to avoid
No soul, no heart
You don’t even start

Tell me
Why don’t you tell me

© 1977 Carlin Music Corp

Matador
Phil King

(Instrumental)

Monochrome
Emma Anderson

Wake with the sun
What’s going on
When you’re gone
Fall asleep
When you’re near
What’s going on
When you’re here

And sometimes I think if
I stand by the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear
What tomorrow may bring
And you sing

Breathe with your sigh
Makes me high
Don’t know why
Touching your skin
Wishing you were within

Your eyes in a saucer
But mine are just clouded in grey
We’ve so much to say
But I can’t and you just go away
Anyway won’t you stay

Wake with the sun
What’s going on
When you’re gone
And when I lost control
I was cold and I felt old

The ground is beneath me
But slowly it’s falling away
You say we’re like children
So why won’t you come out to play

And sometimes I think if
I look at the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear
What tomorrow may bring
When you sing

Nothing Natural
Emma Anderson

Before I met you I was blind
Pills and liquid filled my mind
Beneath your outline I was new
Overflowing with your tune

And don’t you know you’re beautiful
Next month I missed you like a child
Couldn’t see past you though I tried

And don’t you know you’re beautiful

Now I think of every hour
When you still retained your power
And the precious nights we’d share
When we’d breathe in common air

The feeling now you’re gone
This wretched life goes on
The knife inside of me
It turns just like a key

The sunlight always comes too soon
My body asks me what to do
I was so small and vulnerable
And you are only beautiful

The seasons shining in your hair
And it was more than I could bear
But I can see you in my smile
And you are only beautiful

Olympia
Emma Anderson 

Will I ever be Olympia
Will I ever be a girl like her
Will I ever have to say the word
And instantly I’ll be adored

Could I ever deign to have the look
Instead of have to read a book
Will I ever be Olympia
Will I ever be a girl like her

And if ever there’s a will
There’s a place in Notting Hill
You can go and visit still
And if ever there’s a way
To find a hopeful ray
Will I find it out today

Will I ever be Olympia
Could I ever have a cat like her
Could I ever lie around all day
Eating chocolate and marmalade

Now it’s time to find the perfect world
Dress myself up like the perfect girl
Could I ever be Olympia
Could I ever be in love like her

In the chaos of our lives
Can we ever find the time
To cherish feeling fine
And in the aftermath of pain
Can the balance be regained
Will we ever be the same

And now time to switch off
Sit down
Turn the lights off
Lie back
Treat this sofa like your own
Look out
Here comes trouble
Look out
We’re in a muddle
Keep running ‘til you find
You’ve reached your home

Out of Control
Miki Berenyi lyrics
Emma Anderson music

Don’t cry darling
Let’s try to make up
Please don’t push me, I’m over the top
Drown my sorrows
We’ve just got to stop
I’ll say sorry if you let it drop

I can’t understand why you won’t take my hand
Out of control and you hurt me so much
Feeling I’m falling
No hope and no warning
Out of control but I love you so much

Don’t say sorry, it’s not what you mean
I can’t help you if that’s how you feel
I see the storm gathering now
Dark clouds that block out the light

Cries in the wind as the lightning begins
Out of control ‘cause you hurt me so much
Tears in the rain and a sky full of pain
Out of control but I love you so much
Words are still stinging
My eardrums are ringing
All that I want is the joy of your touch
Breaking our hearts as our worlds fall apart
Out of control but I love you so much

Hold me darling I don’t want to fight
Too far too close, I can’t get it right
I won’t ask you to rein it now
Change has already begun

I’m feeling I’m falling
The future is calling
Out of control ‘cause you’re in such a rush
Sweet in the centre
It’s all the adventure
Out of control but I love you so much

Seasons are changing
Our love’s rearranging
All that I want is the joy of your touch
Twisted together, our love is forever
Out of control and I love you so much

Outdoor Miner
Colin Newman / Graham Lewis

No blind spots
On the leopard’s eyes
Can only help
To jeopardize
The lives of lambs
The shepherd cries

An outdoor life
For the silverfish
Eternal dust
Less ticklish
Than the clean room
A houseguest’s wish

He lies on his side
Is he trying to hide
In fact it’s the Earth
Which he’s known since birth

Face worker
A serpentine miner
A roof falls
An underliner
Of leaf structure
The egg timer

© 1979 Carlin Music Corp

Outside World
Emma Anderson

Lately I don’t feel quite as I should
Lately I don’t feel quite as I could
I’ve been tired, lonely
Sick of all this talk
It’s been heading downward
Since we left New York

Lately I’ve been feeling really down
Sorry but my mind’s in London town
Is it me or are these hotels really bad
I want some decent TV
Not this endless ad

Don’t worry
You’re a long long way from home
People speak to me but I feel so alone

Can’t you understand
My body’s changing fast
It’s not up to me
How long I’m going to last

Papasan
Miki Berenyi

Maybe I should
Make you stay away
So you can
Really concentrate
On where you are today

When you phone
I sit and think alone
And wonder if your life
With her is really as you say

Then again you’re still a friend
I’ll be loyal to you ‘til the end

Come to me
With wounds
You want to heal
I’ll listen and
I’ll try to understand
The way you feel

Never fear
That I’ll be gone from here
I’ll always be around
For you to talk to me
My dear

We can try to justify
Reasons for and reasons why
Some are true
And some are only lies

With fingers crossed
You close your eyes
And hope that things
Will turn out fine
There’s not a lot that I can do
If you’re too weak
To face the truth

‘Cause if the things
You tell me are
The way you really claim they are
Then I can only pity you
For being such a fool

Plums and Oranges
Emma Anderson 

It’s a lonely day in this house
Grey and insular in this house
I’m so bored and jaded
I’m so tired of feeling blue

It’s a sunny day in your house
I can’t see the clouds in your house
This is where I’m staying
I just want to be with you

Please believe me when I say
All is what it seems
I’ve packed them up
And thrown them away
You know what I mean
From the inside
To the outside over again

Please believe me when I say
All is what it seems
The fish next door are shining today
You know what I mean

It’s a different day in this house
Plums and oranges in this house
This is where I’m staying
This is where I want to be

Pudding
Emma Anderson

Who wants pudding
And who wants honey
And who wants bananas and cream

Who wants possessions
With various obsessions
Which God will remove if you scream

Nothing much has changed

My body’s a-creakin’
My mind keeps a-leakin’
My feet are all dirty and grey

I live in my nightgown
From sun up to sun down
And watching the sweet tooth decay

Nothing much has changed

Blind spots
Join the dots
Colour in Barbie and Ken

Scab on the knee
Biscuits for tea
I live in my cupboard
With friends then

Nothing much has changed

Rosebud
Miki Berenyi lyrics
Emma Anderson music

I am holding my breath
Closer to death
Waiting for a chance

Sleep now
Lie in the bed
That’s when I send
My curse into your heart
The fragile fantasy expires
If you won’t do
What they desire

But in the heat of the lights
It’s harder to say no
You look so vulnerable alone

They’re just having some fun
How is it wrong
If you wear a smile
I will pluck out their eyes
Throwing their worthless gifts into the fire

A drop of blood is all it takes
To close your eyes
And seal your fate
And when the fireworks end
A hundred years will pass
I’ll hold your happiness
In my heart

Goodnight my baby girl
And dream of paradise
My thorns will cradle you with love

I am holding my breath
Closer to death
Waiting for my chance

Runaway
Miki Berenyi

Come on boy
I want to dance now
Line by line
We talk all night yeah
Hold me down
I think I’m flying
Everybody’s eyes are shining
Run away to where the world is fine

Hold on boy
You’re falling fast now
Line by line
You go nowhere yeah
Drag me down
I feel I’m sinking
Can’t relate to what you’re thinking
Run away to where the sun don’t shine

Hello, hello
Are you still there
You don’t answer me
‘Cause you just don’t care
Act so young but you look so old
And you’re too far gone
To find your own way home

Life’s so hard for you to handle
You can’t live without your devil
Boy, you think that you’re so special
Well, life is hard for everyone
Believe me

Hello, hello
Are you still there
You don’t answer me
‘Cause there’s no-one there
Run away from your own sweet soul
And you’re too far gone
To find your own way home

Rupert The Bear  
Frank Weston / Ron Roker

There’s a little bear
Like you’ve never seen before
Who’s a lot of fun
Children everywhere
Grow to love him more and more
He’s their number one

There’s a million stories to be told
Of the things that he’s done
And he’s going to share
Them all with you
So come along

Oh Rupert, Rupert the bear
Everyone sing his name
Rupert, Rupert the bear
Everyone come and join
In all of his games

There is Badger Bill
Little Tiger Lily too
And a whole lot more
They are Rupert’s friends
And they’re waiting here for you
So unlock the door

There’s a magic land
Not far away
And they call it Nutwood
Where you’ll meet
A little teddy bear
If you are good

Rupert the bear
My little Rupert

© 1971 ATV/Sony Music Publishing

Scarlet
Emma Anderson / Miki Berenyi

Nothing can eclipse
Tender fingertips
Youthful girlish hips
Crimson pouting lips

But what d’you say
When nothing’s meant
What d’you do
When all is spent

Faithless faceless night
Drenched in empty light
Scarlet starlet’s bright
Vanity’s delight

Cream of life
You’ll find in her
First to come
She’s first to serve

Turned away
You’re out of luck
Spurned again
No-one to fall in love

Second Sight
Miki Berenyi

Peel back empty night
Grey dawn breaks into white
Sun climbing the sky
Your eyes reflecting the light
Clouds out of sight
But when the day is through
Will I see you again

Keep your eyes on me
Don’t let go of my hand
Running together
We go together so well
I can tell

Run where I run
Play where I play
Do what I do
But when this day is through
Will I see you again

Shut Up
Emma Anderson

I can’t seem to find
The time to ponder
I only think when
I go for a wander

Life is too short
I feel that I’m caught
I can’t go on feeling like this

I close my mind to
Boring stuff that you say
I’m cold and numb to
Things that you put my way

It’s gone on too long
I have to be strong
My interest is gone long ago

I can’t bear it
When you start to moan
‘Cause night and day
You’re always on the phone

And the fact my house
Is not my home
Why can’t you
Just leave me alone

Single Girl
Emma Anderson

Single girl
I don’t want to be a single girl
Don’t want to be
On my own again tonight
Don’t want to put out the light

Single girl
I don’t want to be a single girl
Single girl
Who would want to be a single girl
Don’t want to talk
To myself again tonight
Don’t want to put out the light

When you abandoned me
Well, it was heaven sent
When I abandoned you
It was what you meant
Well, it was me that knew it
And it was you that went
Haven’t changed our minds
It was meant to be

Don’t want to clean up
Your mess again tonight
Don’t want to be in a fight
And I can do what
I want again tonight
With who I choose ^[2]
It’s all right
Single girl
I just want to be
A single girl

Starlust
Emma Anderson /  Miki Berenyi

Walking at midnight
In the darkness alone
Standing in the shadows
And I’m watching your glow

Standing in the red light
And I’m smiling at you
Dreaming of the starlight
Just waiting for you

I’ll do anything to
Make you mine
Make me shine
Take me if you want me
I don’t care
I don’t mind

I want your starlight
Make it mine
Make me shine
Touch me with your light
And I’ll burn like a star

Superblast!
Emma Anderson

Me in the world
Losing tears
Shedding fears
Strain for the sun
Make you run
Make you come

You don’t know
You don’t know

I’m in my home
All the time
On my own
Low finger fine
Take what’s mine
From behind

You don’t know
You don’t know
It’s not there
You don’t care

You’re still inside of me
Beneath the cotton core
My pictures smile at me
But soon they’ll rise and soar

Fill up my space
Turn around
Fade and trace
Be absolute
Blue and white
Fatal fruit
She nylon smile
Full of lies
Shining eyes
Cover my grin
Take a chance
Maybe win

It’s not there
It’s not fair
You don’t know
You don’t care

Sweetie
Chris Acland / Miki Berenyi

Driving back again
And he’s feeling trashed again
Honestly he says, I’ll go carefully he says
I know that one was close, okay
But I swear I’m in control, he says
Let’s go back to yours again
‘Cause I need a little more
And here I go again
I’m feeling off my head
I’ll get another round
Oh, just one more then we’ll hit the road

Oh, my history is a nightmare
Wife and kids, you know it’s a nightmare

And here I go again
I’m feeling off my head
I’ll get another round
Oh, let’s just say that it’s one for the road

Have I had enough
Am I looking really rough
Call my answer-phone
I pretend I’m not at home

And here I go again
I’m really off my head
I’ll get another round
Oh, just one more then we’ll hit the road

Sweetness And Light
Emma Anderson

See with you
Memories fading fast
And with me
It’s never going to last

You are the sweetness in my eyes
You are an apple in disguise

See with you
I never seemed
To look the other way
Only to stay
Only to breathe
Only to see
That space and light
Is what I really need

You are the sweetness in my eyes
You are an apple in disguise
I never wanted to tell lies
You are the sweetness in my eyes

You are the sweetness in my eyes
You are an apple in disguise
You are the juice I need for life
You are the sweetness in my eyes

Take
Miki Berenyi

He’s perfect
At least within his dreams
He’s perfect
To satisfy my scheme
He doesn’t know my game
I don’t recall his name

And though it’s true
My flesh is new
Believe me dear
My mind is clear

He’s smiling at me
He thinks he’s won the night
I’m laughing at him
Imagine what you like

I know he’s seen
Inside I’m green
But still he’s blind to
What goes on
Inside my mind

He’s smiling at me
He thinks he’s won the night
I’m thinking of me
Imagine what you like

He claimed his prize
I had my price
I know it’s cruel
But I refuse to be
The only one to lose

Thoughtforms  
Emma Anderson 

Come on, little man
Now all’s said and done
All that I’m asking
Is you show me some fun
I need purple views
And scenic greens
They can make me soar
And touch extremes

I just fell down from whitest skies
And now I start to realise
And all the colours talk to me

And if I had wings
Then I could take you in
I’d stay on the ground
And I could teach you things

The grass is strewn with blades of gold
These sights and songs I have been told
All hopes, desires that seem to sing

Come on, little man
Now your time’s nearly through
Colours are dripping down
Red and blue
I’m standing in the middle
Of a great glass ball
I’m told that I’ve nothing
But I’m having it all

I just rose up from blackest seas
My eyes were opened so widely
And it’s a shame to end this way

Tinkerbell  
Miki Berenyi

Everybody knows a woman like me
Insecurity is my philosophy
I see other women
As the competition

I’m always nice to men
And so they’re nice to me
But other girls always seem
To be bitching about me
I say they must be jealous
I say that it’s because
Their boyfriends all fancy me

Close my eyes
And fantasise
A world of men and only me
So much fun
To be number one
What good are sisters to me

I just can’t relate to somebody
Unless I use my sexuality
Normal conversation
Always leaves me insecure

Men are so much
More approachable
Clever, kind and intellectual
And I never feel uncomfortable
In their company

Male appreciation
Is my one ambition
It’s a competition I must win

When I talk to girls
It’s just one-upmanship
Because I don’t want
Their friendship
Just their jealousy

Tiny Smiles
Emma Anderson / Miki Berenyi

I’d like to do
Something for you
You want me to
She’s just the same
She likes to play
I’ll hide kisses in your hair

Don’t feel ashamed
You’re not to blame
It’s just a game
But just the same
What would they say

Baby, angel on my knee
Our lips are sealed

Come sit with me
Slide on my knee
Sing just for me
And for a while
I’ll make you smile

Baby, angel on my knee
I know what you want from me
I’ll make you smile

Outside
She’s listening
To laughter
And whispering
But she won’t say
Nothing to him, see

She’s just the same

Tralala
Emma Anderson

In this world I live in
I care for number one
Hell is round the corner
Never trust no-one

Funny how the people
Came to gather round
Oh so many people
When I was on the ground

I’ve never known what love is
There’s no Mr. Right
If they want to treat me good
Then that’s their sorry plight

Funny how the people
Came to give their voice
Are they really people
Or just silly little boys

Say what you want
I don’t mind
Say what you need
I don’t mind

I want all the people
To notice who I am
You’ve got to show them
What you’ve got
Or they won’t
Give a damn

Untogether
Miki Berenyi

It’s not easy
But try to picture this
Do you remember
That we were once together
Isn’t it strange
Isn’t it
I’m sorry it’s come to this
But why are we here bothering
What was it we talked about

So just remind me
Of why we’re wasting so much time
Pretending that there is
Something more than only this
Only this pointless accusation
Tell me again
Why are we here

I’m not offended
By the things that you say
‘Cause it’s such a
Predictable way to behave
Talk and insult me
’Til you’re blue in the face
You were right
I was wrong
Now does that make you happy

I’m quite aware
Of all the bad things I did
You don’t have to remind me
Of why you dislike me
There’s no solution
To the mess that we’re in
It’s so sad and so boring
I wish you’d just leave me alone

But I understand
The games you play
I’m ashamed of
All the things I did to you

When I Die
Emma Anderson 

If you walked in now
I wouldn’t start
I wouldn’t frown
And if you just appeared
I wouldn’t cry or think it weird

‘Cause you are still around
You’re in the air
You’re in the ground
And you can’t go away
I am afraid you’re here to stay

Friends don’t understand
They close the door
They raise their hands
She says she hears your voice
Of course she does
She has no choice

I was hours ahead
When they removed
You from your bed
They drank all the while
Until you said goodbye

Why are we sitting here in ourselves

I don’t look up
I don’t down
I look ahead
And make no sound
My love was there
I only stare

Healthy in my dreams
Is what you are
Is what it seems
What does it all mean
You’re only hiding behind a screen

Curse the English day
For what it forces us to say
Banish all the pain
‘Cause when I die
I’ll see you again